The last few days have been pretty manic and exciting for me. Loads of stuff to report and loads of stuff that has happened.

After the other day and the hands above I decided to take all my money off both FT and PS to put down as a deposit on a new car. I had it in my mind that if I couldnt get staked then I would just do the same as when I started playing on Stars and just deposit a couple of hundred bucks and work it back up. Even though thats probably leaving money on the table it wouldnt be that much of an issue. Obviously the better option would be to get staked to play NL50 & Nl25.

So Sunday I went to test drive the car I had been looking at and I loved it and they seemed pretty keen on not letting me leave the forecourt without sorting out a deal so I managed to knock them down over £1K on the price as well as getting a favorable deal on my car that I was part exchanging. Im picking the car up tomorrow night so that should be fun.

Corsa VXR

So thats that out of the way which left me with no money on either site to play Poker though but Im very happy to say that I have sorted out a deal which allows me to play my normal volume and also play at NL50 & NL25. I did quite a bit of research when it came to approaching people as a lot of the time in the staking forum people are just contacting everyone which Im not sure is the best approach and wouldnt fill me with confidence.

Im very happy with the deal that I have got and hopefully this will give me a chance to move up to NL50 permanently and then hopefully spring board me above that. We just have to sort out the fine print tonight but I must say I am quite looking forawrd to this and hopefully it will give me a bit more structure and responsibility which may see me tilt less.

On that note I also contacted Elliot Roe who specializes in hypnotherapy and mindset coaching for Poker. My problems have been well documented in my threads and I were at the point of just stopping trying to improve in that area and just accept that I tilt and cant do much to stop it.

Ive had a long chat with Elliot about the way he works and ways that he looks to help people, again I did some research and the reviews he has had seem pretty impressive. Im willing to give anything a try to try and help me with this problem which I feel is holding me back far too much so Ive booked some sessions and Im going to be working with Elliot for the foreseeable future.

Im really excited and nervous about this and have my first session with him on Thursday. I really dont know what to expect, I feel almost unhelpable and Elliot has a lot of confidence in his work and what he can do for me. He says my history makes me a really interesting subject for him to work with, I wonder what he is letting himself in for. 🙂

One thing is for sure that tilt over the years has cost me thousands and if I can improve even a fraction on that then the long term benefits will be clear to see.

Elliot’s thread can be found here:-


Thats a question Ive asked myself a lot when it has come to poker. I have a very bad habit of calling when I know I am beat for a reason that really can only be described as curiosity. A couple of those stupid calls can have me on crazy tilt very quickly.

I would be very angry then after the session and having done my usual hitting the desk or whatever and having a chance to sit down and reflect for a short time I get this wave of optimism that seems to come over me where I will tell myself that Im going to cut out all the stupid mistakes that I make which then means that Im going to be making more money.

Obviously that never happens though, not in the long term anyway.

Im playing like a total tool at the moment. Its always been the same with me, I get a few bad beats over a short time and then my poker play just goes tits up.

Im tilting more at the moment than I can remember for quite a while and with my tilt creeps in the bad play. Its got so bad that today i withdrew all my money off Pokerstars and will be doing the same off FT tonight.

Now that does sound a bit extreme but it does coincide with me finally changing my car and so the money has gone on a deposit for the car and also to pay off my credit card which has crept up since we started the business.

So basically the money was coming off one way or another anyway as I decided a few days ago that I was going to look for a stake to play NL50 or NL25. Im hoping playing with someone elses money will help keep the tilt in check and also drawing the money out is going to just give me a few days away from poker which i probably need.

Whilst i try and sort out a stake It will give me the chance to start reading Jared Tendlers book again as this usually coincides with me playing the best poker I play so will give it a chance again. I usually manage to get half way through the book and then stop because Im playing well and then it seems to work for a few months before I end up at the point im at today.

On the staking thing I am in talks with someone so Im just waiting to see if that will go anywhere but it seems a major problem is my lack of volume that I can put in but im hoping my good results will make up for that(apart from the start of this month anyway). If I cant sort anything out then I will probably just deposit $100 or so and start out at NL10 again and just grind my way back to NL25.

First thing though is to get refreshed and then start to try and grab my tilt by the horns whilst sorting the staking out. Will report back.

October 2012 Results

Posted: November 1, 2012 in Poker Theory

Again not really a bad month results wise but as I have mentioned quite a few times I am playing like quite a big fish at the moment.

Im hoping finding out how much i have on full Tilt along with the motivation of a new care may improve my play this month but we will see.

Looking for feedback…..

Posted: October 28, 2012 in General
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I made a post a while since mentioning that our new website had gone live, well we have now decided to extend this a bit and we are going to go down the route of starting a blog and also doing an online store.

To do this we have decided to set up another webiste which is the .com version of the first one and has a different set up to the first one and we are hoping to update on a regular basis.

Anyway the website can be found at and although its still in its early stages I would appreciate a bit of feedback on how it looks and if theres any errors that we have missed or ways people feel that we could improve it.

Thank you.

Ive managed to get back to winning ways this month after starting the month with a 6 buy in downswing.

That makes it sound better than it actually is though because Im still not playing that well and I am still spewing quite a bit. I made a decision early on in the month that I was going to try and tighten up because I feel Ive gone past the point of playing good loose Poker and in to the realm of playing bad loose Poker.

I mean just one look at my stats for the month and its clear to see that playing 24/19 with a WTSD of 30% is going to be a losing proposition. looking at my best month in poker I were playing 16/13 and going to SD just about 23% which is quite a big difference.

Its almost as if I feel I can just open any two fancy looking hands and profit by playing them rather than opening them in the correct spots.

Im just about to start a session now and Im going to try and play a really basic form of poker and try and resist the urge to open all these hands and actually tighten up a bit and also try folding some hands when Im obviously beat as well as cutting down on the stupid spews that I do when I bluff for no logical reason other than to stroke my own ego.

Anyway I will report back how I have gone on.

Wish me luck.


Results are in and I lasted 258 hands before tiltbreaker kicked in. Managed to end the session a buy in up after it had set off the alarm. Stats were 23/20 and 32% WTSD so no real change and couldnt help but try and bluff the fish who at the moment seem to smash every paired board against me when I have a decent pair. The fact I never fold against their raises even though they play their hand face up isnt helping me.

2 Hands that cost me were 2 all ins where I had Ak against QQ and missed and AQ against QQ. The other big hand was AK that I 3bet and got a TJQ flop where my opponent shoved the flop I call and he flips AT, Turn brings a Queen and the river a King.

Will try again in 15 mins.

Thats me at the moment, sat there giving my chips away.

I realized a long time ago that even though I play pretty loose people will not put their stack in the middle against me without a big hand. For some reason even though I realized this I still do nothing about it and still try and pull off all sort of stupid bluffs even though I know this.

Well it seems at the moment Im on a mission to try and make people fold when I have total air. Needless to say its not going too well.

Im so far away from playing the poker I was 2 or 3 months ago and I really need to start getting a grip because my tilt problems are creeping back again.